I didn’t sleep well last night. I was waking up at least every hour and struggling to fall asleep again. In the morning I got up without difficulty but then after doing the shopping with my mum I came home and fell asleep on the sofa. I had to get up to be interviewed by someone conducting social research but now I feel as though I could easily fall asleep again. I also feel a wee bit miserable. Rather than looking at my to do list and thinking, “Wow, all these fascinating things to get stuck into!” I’m looking at it and asking “What’s the point?”
I suppose this is just a standard off day, but then again I am tempted to blame clomipramine. I had another day just like this while taking it about two weeks ago and at the time I felt sure that clomipramine was to blame. It bothers me that I can never know whether clomipramine has anything to do with anything. I’m due to bump up the dose again so if I do that tonight I’ll be interested to see if it has any effect. I saw my GP yesterday to check on my progress but we didn’t discuss much. I don’t make good use of these appointments.
In the meantime, how to get on and do all the things I have to do? Unfortunately today is an unstructured day that relies purely on my motivation and planning to get through everything. If only I had somewhere to be and some obvious motions to go through I could handle that much better. I thought that writing here might help me to figure out how I was feeling so I could move on. Perhaps it has a little.
