It's Psychosomatic

Personal experience of how a world can fall apart due to mental illness.

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I zoned out during a lot of the brain anatomy he explained. I think I picked up on one good bit though, if I understood it correctly. Apparently in solving a problem, one part of the brain is meant to throw forward relevant information to another part to be processed. Apparently, in my case, in the OCD case, that part of the brain doesn’t do it’s job well. It either throws forward too much, including irrelevant stuff, or it throws forward nothing. So either I’m swamped with stuff I can’t process or I get nothing to work with. The problem doesn’t get solved. I think I have read something to this effect before but I had totally forgotten it. 

I might have put my own slant on all this, based on what I wanted to hear, but I hope I didn’t too much. In the end, I left less dissatisfied than I expected, considering that he told me at the beginning of the hour that I was a foregone conclusion. Actually, I left satisfied. I believed him. He seemed to “get it” (which I don’t like to say because of the whiny implication that some people “don’t get it”, but that’s not what I’m going for).

The whole thing has given me so much food for thought about the nature of OCD and there’s now a lot I want to talk about.

1 year ago
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