I have multiple things to do, some of them time-sensitive. Unfortunately, I get so hung up on doing things correctly, or just so immersed in details, that the (seemingly) smallest things can take days. And it’s like there is a log jam in my brain between all the things that need dealt with. They all affect one another so I can’t settle on a linear order. I just can’t figure out what to do, how to do it, where to do it, how to combine all my tasks with the basic necessities of eating, going to the bathroom etc. I have actually been thirsty for hours and I haven’t managed to do anything about it. As I get more and more frustrated with myself over how long I am taking, it becomes even more difficult. Tears are welling up in my eyes but they won’t quite start flowing, which is frustrating in itself. I find that I want to do something to help them along. I am so stuck.
Personal experience of how a world can fall apart due to mental illness.